I think I jinxed Migs by what I wrote the last time. Last Sunday, I received news that Migs was already out of the ICU and is doing better, but, yesterday, Migs was again transferred back to the ICU for close monitoring after his pulse oximeter showed desaturations. I don’t know what happened but a few days back, he was showing improvement already so I don’t completely understand why he’s having carbon dioxide retention and is now on acute respiratory failure. It’s a really difficult time for everyone: for Migs, for his parents and for us. Sometimes, I wish these were all just a dramatic scene from a movie… that a director would soon call “cut” and my friends would be brought back to life. Sometimes, I wish I could be just someone else… someone who never knew this kind of life existed.

I believe God has plans for me… for everyone affected by this tragedy. But inasmuch as I would have wanted to know the reason behind what’s happening to us right now, I know that only a mind full of wisdom could perhaps comprehend this situation. As of this moment, my mind is just blank and my heart is very numb. I wish this to be over.