I am fond of browsing through hundreds of stuff up for auction at ebay philippines and I’ve put up a few of my unwanted but usable items myself. So far things have been good for me. My bidders paid for the items they’ve won although some needed to be reminded constantly of their invoices. That’s good enough for me than encountering a bogus bidder who will not even communicate with you at all. Although I don’t buy stuff as much in the .com version of ebay that it’s .ph version, my experience has been okay so far. My boyfriend bought off a few items he needed for his techie gadgets and they arrived on time. It’s only recently that I’ve been experiencing problems with my purchases.

Last December 14, I paid for a full housing for my W550i from a reputable seller based in UK, sadly, I have yet to see the notice from the post that I have an item ready for pick-up and it’s been more than a month already. This experience is really frustrating especially since I badly wanted that housing for my cellphone. I don’t know who to blame, the seller, the speedy postal service or myself for buying something for shipping right smack the flurry of shipments for the holidays. I can’t help but think that perhaps, if only I had been more patient and let the busy holiday season pass before I made my purchase, I wouldn’t be worried that I would not see my item at all. *sigh* Perhaps, I’ll just take this as a lesson.

My issue with the seller is still unresolved up to now. I am not really blaming the seller but perhaps, if I don’t receive anything within the next week, I’ll just ask for a refund and sulk in my little corner.

So will I continue bidding off ebay? I think so. There’s no other way I can find good deals like talking watches or affordable cosmetics other than in ebay.

I know you’ve had enough of my rants but I’m here to dish out more! *evil laughter*

I am so unmotivated to study now even if I have three exams tomorrow and I’m just halfway through studying for my first exam. It’s really frustrating both because I want to study and I don’t want to at the same time. Yes. It’s a schizophrenic kind of thing. LOL.

I miss being in the comforts of my own home. Living away alone can sometimes make you feel depressed. No wonder why my brother who’s gonna be a college freshman *gasp* in 2010 didn’t want to stay in a dormitory. He probably has foreseen how it can be really sad to live alone. I have been living away for a good three years but I haven’t gotten used to it. Perhaps I won’t at all.

I wish I could just go up to my mom and sleep beside her in that homey room of hers with Bamboo shades.

I have the headaches and I think I’m going down with a fever. If it has anything to do with what I learned this morning, I don’t exactly know. You see, I happened to pass by the cashier’s office earlier today to get my X-ray request slip in preparation for the clerkship this April, and there it was… in black and white, the figures the clerks of SY 2008-2009 had to pay: a staggering P 181,000. My heart fell to the ground and I could feel it being shattered to pieces. This figure isn’t even the one I am bound to pay for this coming April. For sure, it’s gonna be more expensive with the tuition fee increase this year. Although I am not exactly the one paying for my tuition, my parents for sure are dead with having to shoulder this HUGE amount. I’m sure they’re already regretting the day I had decided to become a doctor. My tuition hasn’t been a big problem for the last couple of years when I managed to get a full academic scholarship grant in 2nd year and a partial scholarship grant for this school year. But then, with the dismal grades that’s greeting me each time I get my exam results, even the partial scholarship grant for next year is seemingly bidding goodbye - and I’m no longer counting on it. The recession didn’t help. A lot of workers are being laid off and even if my parents have a stable job, for sure, they will be affected as well. It makes me wonder then how people who are less financially blessed as we are would have to cope during this crisis?

I don’t know if I am lucky or not for not being burdened by financial responsibilities. But then, being the family’s breadwinner or not is no longer the question at the moment but on what I can do to help my family be less affected by the global financial crisis. So, am I saying goodbye to the yearly birthday bash I’ve been throwing since I turned 13? Perhaps. Perhaps. Perhaps.

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Visit me for some sports gifts and sports goodies.

It’s officially Sunday and I haven’t started anything with the schoolwork I brought home. I may be unproductive lately but I don’t regret anything a bit; after all, I’m giving up schoolwork for time spent with my family and relatives.

Today, we celebrated my grandfather’s first death anniversary last January 7. It’s customary in our family that we gather on the 40th day of death and on the first death anniversary which we call “babang-luksa”. I don’t exactly know how you translate it in English but “babang-luksa” only roughly means that the immediate family of the dead has now finished mourning. At the most superficial - “babang-luksa” meant that the immediate family can now wear “happy” colored clothing like red. I, being one of the grandchildren have shied away from wearing red (unless really needed) for the past 12 months since my grandfather died. All my red-colored clothing have been put away to the back of my closet until today.

My mother decided we’d do the gathering at the memorial park where my grandfather was laid to rest. When my grandmother and when Brent died a few years back, we held the gathering here at home. Perhaps, the experience of being tired and stressed with the preparations prompted mom to just order food and hold the gathering somewhere else. I have to agree with her on that. My mom’s hypertension coupled with her OC-ness are not exactly the perfect ingredients to a gathering.

So, I went there this afternoon and met a lot of my relatives whom I rarely see on regular days. Whether I like it or not, I should be attending family gatherings more often because soon, I’ll be the one holding parties and inviting my relatives over. The pressure is killing me. Belonging to a large family didn’t help either. I always end up calling all the adult females “tita” and all the adult males “tito” without even knowing if I’m addressing them properly. If there’s anything I like about the Filipino culture, this is it - the close family ties that we have managed to keep intact through the years. It’s especially more pronounced in the provinces where everyone knows everyone else. When my paternal grandmother died and we had to go to Antique back in 2007, I was amazed by how I can virtually trace my lineage through the elders who still lived. I think my cousin even plans to make a family tree so that we’d have something to show off to our children someday. With the technology now, I don’t think that’s impossible to do.

Anyway, I haven’t had Bee check my laptop yet. It’s already getting on my nerves. I talked to my father last week and he did promise me a new laptop when he gets back (though I would have wanted to get a DSLR actually ). He said he’s gonna fix my old one, get a memory upgrade, reformat the hard drive (after doing a backup of course!) and give this to my youngest brother. I am not to keen on the idea though. I am pretty sentimental about the things that I have and it’s going to be painful to part with my lappie. Four long years of being together is not a joke! But then again, at the same time, getting my hands on a new laptop also excites me. Confused much?

This is my first post here and I am sick. I woke up yesterday with a bad headache that didn’t resolve. I woke up today still with that bad headache and I’m feeling slightly feverish. The timing isn’t good (I should have gotten sick over the Christmas break or on the 6th instead! Hehe) Unfortunately for someone out there, never in my right mind will I buy a computer memory or any computer stuff and give out as a gift. Where’s the romance in that?!?! Haha. I can almost imagine this scenario:

Friend: So, what did you give Bee for your first anniversary?
Me: this new memory chip for his computer *while scooping out ice cream*
Friend: *confused*

See, the first anniversary is almost up and I want to make my gift as special as I could. I already have something in mind - too bad I’m too sick to get my butt out of the house.

And oh, before I forget, Happy New Year everyone!