My laptop’s having problems again. After having been soldered thrice, my laptop’s plug socket is not working as perfectly as it should be again. I’m so sick and tired of it. I cannot bring my laptop anywhere anymore. It has to stay in one place - untouched - so that I could work. I hate this. I’m looking forward to buying a new laptop soon but I don’t have enough moolah to finance my selfishness. Aside from an energy efficient laptop, a new DSLR and a cameraphone also top my list. Sometimes, I hate being a student because it makes me really dependent on my parents for my finances and at this age, it’s quite embarrassing already, but most of the time, it’s such a joy to be a student especially if there’s suspension of classes or school breaks like during the Holidays and summer. But soon, things will be different for me as I finally grace the halls of the hospital and run errands for all my seniors.

I wonder if I’m really that capable already to be working in a hospital. Almost three years after I entered medical school, I sometimes doubt if the knowledge I’ve gathered is enough to at least let me finish clerkship. But as my seniors always remind us, it’s never enough - at least - in this field that we have chosen. Such toxicity. Tsk.