One Pleasant Surprise - La Dolce Vita

Sometimes, just a simple gesture is enough to make you happy and kiss your worries away.

I have a bad prognosis for the Neurology exam that I took this afternoon. I think I got some concepts messed up while I was taking the exam. I am not sure if I got enough correct answers to make me pass that first exam – nevertheless, I feel disheartened and disappointed with myself because I knew I would have done a whole lot better at that exam if only I came in more prepared. But things have passed and there’s no use crying over spilled milk. I’m spending another all-nighter cramming for one of my major subjects and I was actually at that point when I’m already panicking. You see, I think I have panic anxiety disorder. I get palpitations, my tummy starts to act all messed up and I get dizzy when faced with such kind of pressure (Sorry, I ain’t Janina San Miguel who’s “not feeling any pressure right now“. LOL) I was actually close to tears. And then, my cellphone started to beep: it was a message from Bee saying he’s coming over from work and we’ll be having dinner together. I think I felt my heart fluttering. You see, in the past few weeks, we only see each other once a week because we both have responsibilities to attend to and usually, we get to see each other only during the weekends. But there it was, typed out in an SMS message that he’s coming over. Have I been good for the past 6 months that Santa’s already giving me an early present for Christmas?

I won’t be able to cram even half of what I need to know just a few hours before I take the exam. I’ve come to terms with that already and I’m good. But these sweet gestures from him – to drop by, feed me some pizza, give me the extra push that I need and just hug me tight when I feel like crying already – are more than enough fuel to keep my fire going and believe that I can do even the most impossible right now.

I have barely nine hours to study; given the condition that I won’t sleep a wink tonight. But I don’t really care that much anymore. I’m just filled with joy that someone out there still believes in the things that I can do.